Setting the example

Of course I wondered. Did cancer cause the storm or was it just another unmistakable toddler phase? Were my worries about Kenji's utter weakness resonating in the boys behavior or did they urgently need to get back in the preschool flow?

The sun was right in time to show us the way to preschool. The days of leaving
in the dark are catching up any day now, so yesterday's abundant rays were a small gift. Biking and looking at my two boys in their matching blue down jackets, I felt a huge sense of relief. "I'm doing something normal" - a parent like every other parent who is taking her child to school in the morning - "and cancer isn't written all over our faces."

After finishing his spaghetti, his lettuce ánd yoghurt, Big Brother announced: "I'm not going to spill my milk." "Neither will I", Little Brother joined him. And they kept their promise! Followed by: "I'm not going to pee on the toilet floor." The confirmation I was looking for that some previous 'accidents' were indeed quite deliberate... "I'm going to do my best mama!": Big Brother set the example and Little Brother loyally followed. I couldn't be more proud of my two troublemakers.
And apparently cancer isn't to blame for any random tantrum (and neither am I).